' i hate the hot burning tears fall down from my eyes, everything just keeps adding on to everything. it's like facing another death in my family, it's another loss, nothings going to be the fucking same. i mean i love all my friend's there ain't no fucking drama, i have a boyfriend i love so much. but it seem's like i can't grasp onto anything or anyone .. it feels like i'm falling down a cliff and the only thing i'm holding onto is grass.i can't talk to anyone because it feels as if i'm the only one that's got something wrong with me. all they say is " it shouldn't be too bad " yeah it shouldn't but if you were to be put in my fucking shoes you wouldn't know how much it hurts. i've been exposed to many changes in my lifetime and i didn't know i could be exposed to so much more. i honestly don't think this is going to be a great summer nor do i think i'll have a great birthday, it's never great anyway, so it wouldn't be a surprise to me if i woke up one morning and totally forgot it was my birthday. i swear i never do anything for my fucking self anymore , all i do is accept these changes rotating around me everyday.
