Who's Next On The Hit List
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Oh man, you guys are so 2000 and late. Still stressing and fretting about me, I mean I'm flattered. But you know, you know I'm living life =)
On the other hand, I love my boyfriend so much. I appreciate the little things, the smallest details.
Today was fun, pacific mall ftmfw! I had like a mini - shopping spree! I got cute hello kitty school supplies and this cute tote! super cute !
well, going to start cleaning ><'
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Coldest thing droppin and these bitches want a snowblow.
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Family.
Somebody who inherits the same blood as you, so I don't get why you're telling people we're family? No blood what so ever. Get off that, shit. My family don't know you, I don't know you. I'll say it again, this time in caps lock since you didn't get it the first time. GET OFF THAT SHIT. I mean, I'm sorry guys I'm talking to you as if you're stupid, but if you don't get it the first time. I have to repeat it the second. So stop stressing yourself over shit that doesn't concern you, do you man.
OTHER THAN THAT, HAPPY TEN MONTHS!
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Another rant , I think people should try. And I emphasize on the TRY to stay out of other people's lives and TRY living there own. I mean, It's pretty easy. God gave you you're own mind to think your OWN thoughts, do YOUR own thing, and pretty much live your own life. But some people have trouble comprehending with there own brain itself. I'm pretty sure you don't need a lecture, cause you're pretty "grown" and capable of doing that yourself right? But really now, I pity the fool who looks like they don't have a life of there own. Don't shoot the messenger!
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OMG, OMG, OMG ONE HOUR AND A HALF . This is so gay, I never celebrated a ten months before - with anybody. I mean, I know it's quite juvenile that we still count our months .. But come on, ten months gone by already? Spending everyday with you, sharing a bed with you and your house being my second home. I'm truly blessed! I'm truly blessed that I have somebody to confide too, somebody to satisfy my boredom and food cravings (hehe JUST JOKING!) Can't wait for our date tommorow! Hope you like it ;) Love you babe.
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My emotions are put in place now and they're finally settling. The waters are calm now and I'm trying to put a permanent wall against the people who keep dwelling on the past, rely on hate to satisfy there own life, and the sharp but distasteful tongues that use strong words of spite - nothings going to shut me down now and these walls aren't coming down anytime soon, I've given too many chances. I've evolved into something more stronger, something more wiser, something that values more in life than just nonconstructive criticism from others. I'm better off taking my own advice than somebody's own from now on. On the other hand love is a touchy subject when it comes down to talking about it. Love doesn't hurt though. That's what I don't get, when people confuse the word love with hurt - there's a fine line. Love is when everything you ever wanted is put in place, jealousy i mean isn't love either.. It's a whole different meaning. I mean I get jealous, but I never dare to mix it up with the word love. I'm still going on a million escapades with you , I mean I'm still young but I know for a fact that this is so real. It's SO real that I can't man up and stop comparing myself to girls that I think you'll fall for. Love is a scary thing, it's a scary feeling, a scary four letter word .. That everybody's scared of succumbing or displacing. It's not love itself that hurts, it's the fear of love, it's aftermath and it's circumstances.
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Our time apart from each other, those heavy three weeks granted us epiphany's of how much time we need together in general. It made us realize that long distances are harder than we thought, but we managed to get past our little arguments and finally communicate about the finer things. As I said, you're arrival meant so much to me. Rekindling and catching up, the day you came back made me so happy. It's like we're starting anew, innovating memories sort of. It reminds me of the two weeks that went by so fast before we started actually going out, the two weeks I fell into love.
I'm actually really happy, thankyou =)
from us girlies <3
* this isn't very appropriate for this very post but we'd like to follow up with this (last post i swear ) It's sad enough that the one girl that doesn't hate you is chilling with a junior , but the fact that you're chattering away to the public like you're maturity level is high - pure jokes. Regardless of how many times you guys tried to sabotage it,our friendships will always remain stable and settle. Tres cute no? The word friendship isn't any of your concern anyways since you only have one friend who isn't very loyal to you either. And we don't care about you, nor do we show any concern to your boyfriend (who we're pretty sure doesn't really love you, as we all know it ) and to your one friend, but this is a response back - cause word of mouth says you're expecting a reply back. Stop retaliating, stop your foolish typing - you need those fingers for the million dicks you need to caress.
(haha, that was uncalled for - but it was for kicks and giggles)
love you!
And so we're finito, here's a humble approach for those of you who need a taste of my life to enjoy there own, this is for you.
Love you all.
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Now Everybody Meet Miss. Me Too
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Imitation is the most sincere form of flattery.
Got to pull that quote out for kicks and giggles (:
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Be original, that's all I'm going to say for now.
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matter over mind?
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Today I decided to write another blog, It's 11:43 and I just woke up an hour ago ... That's kinda sad. I thought my sleeping patterns were up to date, so much for that. It's kind of hard when it's the time of the month and you stay up feeling bloated and just pain everywhere. I stay up at the wee hours of night trying to read myself to sleep, or make myself get itus (which isn't working at all) It's not the same when you can't come over just to tuck me in, or your mom telling me to sleepover cause it's too cold outside. In your time zone you're coming back in eight days and for me you're coming back in nine days. Why does there have to be different time zones? Oh well, by the time you know it Michael's already knocking on my door. I'm upset about my hair, even though people actually like it at this state .. I had blonde highlights all over and I dyed it over brown cause my roots were becoming noticable.. As an idiot that I am, my highlights turned auburn. It's not bad but I'm just not happy with it. I'm going to the salon on Thursday to get it done and surprise my boyfriend when he comes back ;)
Anyways going to catch up on my shows, xoxo <3
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They say this kid, doesn't stand a chance.
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So, I dropped my Co - op course since it was gay. So I'm starting school next semester, aha can't wait actually. I actually really love Science so I'm stoked for Biology, Cool yo (H) So it's officially nine more days till your arrival and you said you have surprises in store, and I do so can't wait. Sorry I'm being a tease babe, haha but I just want to surprise you when you come back. I love how my boyfriend reads my blogs by the way it's so cute .. and the poems/raps (ew, raps? aha) he makes for me is too cute. I'm actually really motivated now to go back to school, because my mommy said if i go back to school I can go back to yamaha for voice and piano again which I can't wait! And she's been taking me shopping alot lately, I feel bad .. I need a job asap, she's actually letting me too this time. Um, anyway bad and good news. I got a call for an audition for this show in Family, I was stoked at first. But I needed an agent / stylist for 1, 900 $ .. If I get a job, I'll save asap for that. But you can't really rain check auditions. Thanks Linda Chep for the refferal, but hell to the fucking no. I'm more motivated for Yamaha, I quit NCM cause they didn't teach me shit. I don't need confidence for stage preformance, I want to hit certain notes.. got alot in store for this year, 2010 you're going to be crazy <3>
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I want to shoot myself , for even trying to compare myself with your past and sometimes the chicks that you talk too. They're obviously a waste of your time and mine to think about. I'm not being cocky, i'm just being confident , there's a difference. I'm confident that I can trust you. It's hard to let go of things that will hurt you, I need to throw away that emergency button and let that risk happen. It's a new year, I'm not saying I'm going to change completely I'm just saying I'm going to take more risks. Not the bad ones, the good ones. I'm just going to tell you now, that this isn't some silly game anymore .. I'm in it for the real thing. I'm genuinely happy with you and I want to keep it that way, we may have our ups and downs but it's not really a big deal. We get down to the kissing and making up after wards.
"2010, I'm doing my own thing. I'm not even going to pay attention to the immature youths that clearly haven't changed and that's still there same selves from two years ago still hanging around with people younger then them . I mean yeah, we're in high school so let's live the high life. No time for the lows. It's time to focus on the better things then the worse.
Love you all.
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