I'm so blessed that me and my boyfriend fixed our problems, last night.
I can't lie, we both ended up tearing up and this is the first time i ever spilled
a soul to somebody. His mom also talked to us to reassure us " Don't look back, move forward"
that's what she said to me and i'm going to try to take that advice and use it. I've always thought in every relationship i've had in my life there MUST always going to be a catch if it's going well . Cause it's too good to be true, If it's too good to be true, than I guess I'm doing something right. Right? God is finally giving me a break telling to put my feet up and enjoy this relationship and hold on to it no matter what. Letting go and giving up isn't the solution to everything. If you love somebody you got to make it work. I'm still scared to give my all to someone significant cause I'm scared I'm going to have nothing at the end, so i'm still keeping one foot on the ground. Trust IS the biggest issue in this relationship and I take my time to fully trust someone in case I get hurt at the end, I don't want to be too comfortable though. I no longer want to label myself as second place cause, it's me - all or nothing. Take me as I am and I'm not changing for nobody, I'm tired of trying to compete with your past. Cause she's not in your life, I am. There's a reason why she isn't and just so you know I can treat you so much better. It doesn't matter if she loved you first, or loved you second. I love you now and that's all that matters. I'm your number one, and i'm finally fucking happy.
