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Happy Seven Months.
It's amazing how we've only been going out for seven months and it seems like you know me inside and out. It's ridiculous how you make me feel when you kiss the side of my lips, because you know how much I hate it when you kiss my forehead. I love how I manage to go through so much pain just so I can spend even a couple minutes with my baby. These past two months have definitely been hell , you even said it. It's hard for me to let go of the fights , because you DID hurt me once before and it's still going to take a large amount of time to heal. I know you had a bad history, but hopefully I can change that. People make mistakes and we were stupid in the beginning of our whole relationship. I'm the type of girl that never forgives or forgets but I guess your an exception. March 13th honestly felt like the best day of my life, I will never forget that night. " If only we met each other way back when .. " we would always say. Our child hood always had something to do with each other. Where you grew up, was where I grew up. How your tito know's my dad and such. It's so funny. I hope you realize how much my love has grown for you , Even if we didn't kiss, or didn't hold hands - I'd still love you the same. It's time for me to also realize that I'm done with the childish flirts, or even letting stupid " chops " phase me , I'm settling down now. Never once have I found a guy that had treat me the same way, or treat me this good. I've always gotten bored and at the end I didn't lose or gain anything. You never gave me a reason to cheat on you or even regret this whole relationship regardless of our many fights we had, never once. You tell me you've been played many times before, but is it wrong that i'm different from the rest? I'm not about to put up a front and tell you , that your my one and only and few months later I'm going to be sleeping around. Sorry no, i'm not like your stupid ex girlfriends ( yep, the ones that constantly lurk on my blog spot page hoping for me to mention them in my latest posts haha ) . When I say something I actually mean what I say. I've always had to prove something with you, prove that I'm willing to stay. The future is what I'm scared for, I just hope your still willing to be there for me, to fight for me and to STAY with me . Your history hurts me everyday but I'm always trying to see it in a different perspective. I wish I trusted you from the start, I wish you gave me a reason to trust you. But nobody said this would be easy. Nothing is given in a relationship , we both have to make do of what we have now. God forbid the day that we finally let go of eachothers hands, or the day that we finally stop talking - I don't want you to ever forget me Michael Manalo. I want you to keep all the memories we had, and store them in your heart where you can find them again. Okay? But I just want you to remember that the love that we have, can not be reused, or recycled cause this time it's different. I actually want this to last.
Hehe, aren't you glad that this is the longest you've ever stayed with a girl without breakups?
:)
Happy Seven Fucking Months!
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