March 13th 2009.
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March 13th 2009, Friday the thirteenth some call it the day of unfortunate events. But that day was honestly one of the best days of my life. Let's retrace steps I was having the worst day ever. Waiting for my friends expecting them to flop on me, having a fight with my mother, having my dad yell at me on the phone, recovering from an unexpected heart break. Then you came along, I mean - I didn't know you yet, but I was bound to know you that day. I felt stupid singing/ humming "yo, excuse me miss" down the walk way at town center. I felt stupid even being at town center, but what can you do if you're best friends live in Markham and the closest they want to go is town center? Lol, because I didn't want to go down to Mark ville at all. And so we decided to go down to the movie theater to kill time and think of a master plan on what do that night, it's Friday the thirteenth I mean everybody is either watching Friday the thirteenth, or doing something creative. So we've been sitting there for like about an hour and a half, got hungry got burger king, then I saw a bunch of dudes. I mean, I don't get attracted to big groups easily and it so happened that I knew Daniel. You guys were break dancing, i think? Or doing something super attention - seeking, but I didn't catch you guys dancing - I mean, my best friends did but I was minding my own business eating. I just caught you guys all together, so I called you guys asking if you guys can dance .. cause I well missed it. I know you guys passed us numerous times, and I said hi to Daniel. Oh shit, I want to cry this day gives me butterflies.And you passed by, went to Yogen Fruz bought something and went to us. And so I introduced myself to you, I mean .. You caught my eye, you were different. When you looked into me I mean you pierced me with your eyes ( So corny ) But it kinda made me melt a little, I didn't know you yet - I knew of you .. but I had this attraction to you, not yet physical .. just an instinct almost. It kinda killed me a little, because the only reason why I knew you was because of you're girlfriend. Maria .. well i heard you previously but that was the latest update of you in my head. It stopped me from saying things I had to say. Turning my flirt down a knotch. Making my heart break just a tad, In my head I was like "hurt, heart break already? i barely know this guy" I said my name and you said yours. You guys were about to leave, but I didn't want you to. I wanted you to stay, stay the whole night with me. Just holding your hand, or at least be close to you. You asked what we were doing and I said nothing, you wanted to watch a movie and i said okay, but Michelle said OLD FINCH cause you said you had car keys. What would ever happen if you didn't have that Civic? Just kidding. But really, we headed to Old Finch. For some reason, I wanted to get close to you.I wanted to sit beside you, even if I knew Tamika didn't have any attraction to you. I felt a pang of jealousy that she was so CLOSE to you, getting to sit beside you .. shot gun. I just wanted to beas close as possible. I wanted you, I felt so stupid even thinking about you in the back seat. I jumped into your car, a strangers car and heading to an empty area with you , your friends and my best friends? what was going on with me.. i never usually do this. it's probably just an impulse movement.. but i can't say anything, it was too soon to judge. So I let the night just happen .. So the whole way to Old Finch, the whole ride there - I felt so nervous, trying to be myself but obviously I wasn't myself. I wanted to stab myself in the eye knowing that I was feeling this way, when I just met you. I felt so vulnerable .. :| I was trying to convince myself not to fall for you, because my mentality that whole week that all guys are the same. So we went out of the car, and you were so damn close .. I was literally melting where I was standing even though it was freezing outside, but why the fuck was I melting? Probably cause all of the layers I had on, or I was probably just sick .. right? I had a damn skirt on for Gods sakes. But yeah, we decided to go inside the wood's to scare ourselves .. Who knows why? Lol, but it gave me the advantage of getting close to you. I don't really get scared easily, lol but I kinda sorta faked being scared so I can get closer to you ..But clearly that plan didn't work at first because it WAS your friends that were trying to get closer to me. But , you surprised me .. like you always do now. You stayed closed to me and you even held my hand, when I was "scared". It was super funny, when we hid behind the tree hoping to scare the rest of the group. But you held me and in an instant I felt so warm, felt as if somebody actually cared for me. I hated myself for jumping into conclusions, But the thoughts in my head were " This night isn't going to last forever, I'm probably one of the other million girls that jump into his car and enjoy a night like this" That's why I didn't want to keep my hopes up entirely if I was on of those girls. Like really, how am I different from any other girl? If he's going to flirt with me when he has a girl, won't he do that to me? I swear I'm not any different .. I constantly said enough with the thoughts, I just wanted to spend time with you and get to know you .. maybe you're something special. I erased the thought that you had a girlfriend, I tried .. I pushed it into the back of my mind as far as possible. Cause I wanted to be yours, even if you were a complete stranger. It was so funny because we tried scaring them all in the car, and it was only me and you outside just " flirting " haha, you kept holding me and pulling me closer to you and i was blushing, i didn't want to fall into your trap haha! i hate blushing, it makes my face all weird, and makes me ridiculously dizzy. You do that, you know that? You did that , that night! So I remember we all went inside the car, and you were all over me HAHA do you remember that? HUH? I don't know what possessed me or you to be all over each other! But it felt nice, I got the tingly feeling i never got before .. I wanted it to stop, but I wanted it to keep going .. I wanted YOU. I kept resisting and saying " how about your girl? " every time you went close but quite frankly i didn't care .. i was falling so fast, so fast .. incredibly fast, like an avalanche .. never FELL so hard and I knew at that instant that I wasn't going to forget about you, that i needed to see you after this night .. I didn't want moments when you were touching me, holding me to end. I don't remember but I didn't want to leave yet, nobody did .. I don't know who thought of the idea to go to your house, but we ended up at your house. I had so many assumptions, and most of them were right ..But it's okay. The part that left a big imprint on my mind was the fact that you touched me, the fact that you kissed me like nobody has ever made me feel the way before .. I mean, I felt like a slut for letting it happen. I was supposed to feel bad, but I didn't .. It didn't come in between what happened to us, but I was so sure that you felt bad yourself cause you were with this girl for so long and just met me, a stranger, the new girl. I felt the need to push your hand away, or push your lips away from mine but I didn't, it wasn't a lust movement it was more affectionate. It was just .. right. I ended up sleeping over with my girls, and your boys were there .. it was funny, how i farted on you! by accident, because i couldn't hold it in, you know and I tried playing it off like i didn
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