My emotions are put in place now and they're finally settling. The waters are calm now and I'm trying to put a permanent wall against the people who keep dwelling on the past, rely on hate to satisfy there own life, and the sharp but distasteful tongues that use strong words of spite - nothings going to shut me down now and these walls aren't coming down anytime soon, I've given too many chances. I've evolved into something more stronger, something more wiser, something that values more in life than just nonconstructive criticism from others. I'm better off taking my own advice than somebody's own from now on. On the other hand love is a touchy subject when it comes down to talking about it. Love doesn't hurt though. That's what I don't get, when people confuse the word love with hurt - there's a fine line. Love is when everything you ever wanted is put in place, jealousy i mean isn't love either.. It's a whole different meaning. I mean I get jealous, but I never dare to mix it up with the word love. I'm still going on a million escapades with you , I mean I'm still young but I know for a fact that this is so real. It's SO real that I can't man up and stop comparing myself to girls that I think you'll fall for. Love is a scary thing, it's a scary feeling, a scary four letter word .. That everybody's scared of succumbing or displacing. It's not love itself that hurts, it's the fear of love, it's aftermath and it's circumstances.
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Our time apart from each other, those heavy three weeks granted us epiphany's of how much time we need together in general. It made us realize that long distances are harder than we thought, but we managed to get past our little arguments and finally communicate about the finer things. As I said, you're arrival meant so much to me. Rekindling and catching up, the day you came back made me so happy. It's like we're starting anew, innovating memories sort of. It reminds me of the two weeks that went by so fast before we started actually going out, the two weeks I fell into love.
I'm actually really happy, thankyou =)
from us girlies <3
* this isn't very appropriate for this very post but we'd like to follow up with this (last post i swear ) It's sad enough that the one girl that doesn't hate you is chilling with a junior , but the fact that you're chattering away to the public like you're maturity level is high - pure jokes. Regardless of how many times you guys tried to sabotage it,our friendships will always remain stable and settle. Tres cute no? The word friendship isn't any of your concern anyways since you only have one friend who isn't very loyal to you either. And we don't care about you, nor do we show any concern to your boyfriend (who we're pretty sure doesn't really love you, as we all know it ) and to your one friend, but this is a response back - cause word of mouth says you're expecting a reply back. Stop retaliating, stop your foolish typing - you need those fingers for the million dicks you need to caress.
(haha, that was uncalled for - but it was for kicks and giggles)
love you!
And so we're finito, here's a humble approach for those of you who need a taste of my life to enjoy there own, this is for you.
Love you all.
